This walk of faith is not always easy for me. I like to know what’s going on. I’d like to know the future. Or at least that’s what I always think when we’re in the midst of some big decision…
Realistically I know that I really don’t want to know the future. I truly believe that our all-knowing, loving God protects us from things in the future until we are ready for them. Like a loving parent who gradually allows a child more and more freedom to explore the world, God holds us back sometimes until He knows we can handle it.
For quite a while Rusty and I have been praying for clarity in a particular situation. I don’t know what I thought the outcome would be, I guess I had not really thought through all the potential options. I was so focused to getting clarity, knowing what it was that we were supposed to do next, that I didn’t even think about how that might look when it finally happened.
I have a bit of a tendency to worry and “over think” things. I must regularly give this over to Jesus, especially in the last 20 years. It’s been a life-long part of my sin nature, as I clearly remember my Mom admonishing my tendency to worry about everything as a child. She used to say, “You’re gonna have a heart attack by the time you are 30!” Thankfully she was wrong… but no doubt in large part to the healing and restorative power of the Holy Spirit in my life. I know that He is working in me because I am not who I used to be!
Living a Christian life of faith and reliance on God might seem like a cool adventure to some, but others are frustrated by the lack of control over their own lives and circumstances. To be honest, I have found myself in both camps. Especially when there is a life changing decision on the table, I want to get impatient and have answers. The Old Testament tells a story of sweet old woman named Sarah, who was so godly that God had promised to make her the mother of his chosen people, a great nation. Her reaction to God’s promise was to laugh out loud and her impatience with God’s time line caused her to take matters into her own hands. The world is still reeling from her bad decision… a reminder to me of the eternal consequences of not waiting on God!
I am learning, albeit slowly, that waiting on God works every time. It’s the waiting part that is so hard. The enemy whispers lies that you’ve missed the answer or that God is not going to come to your rescue or that you made this mess yourself… so you had better clean it up. It’s easy to forget that God loves us and pursues us with a love and a faithfulness we cannot even comprehend. That’s why reading His Word is so important while we pray and wait for God’s time and God’s answer. I have found that He will answer, in His time, which is perfect for me, whether it felt like it or not during the wait.
Watching God work in our family has been an amazing adventure. When He opens doors for us, it is so exciting to follow His lead, knowing that we are safely in the will of our loving Heavenly Father. Often things don’t make sense on a human level, which can be a challenge for our teens who are still young in their faith or for unsaved friends and family who find our ways very strange indeed. Following Jesus wholeheartedly brings a supernatural peace, even in those situations that don’t make sense humanly.
Today I would like to encourage you to stay strong if you are praying for answers, wisdom or clarity. Remember you are not alone, the path of faith you are walking is narrow and sometimes rocky, but there are many who have walked this way before. Don’t lose hope, Jesus will answer and His answer is ALWAYS worth the wait! And the “peace that passes understanding” will flood your soul…
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.